the only thing I got from being placed in gifted/honors/advanced classes was CRUSHING, UNACHIEVABLE EXPECTATIONS
you know what I just want a job that I’m not bad at that pays enough for me to get by and occasionally get nice things. I don’t even want a job that I love, i just want something tolerable.
I wish it had not been ingrained into me that the end goal is to find a job you love and then climb the ladder to the damn top, because to do otherwise is to be considered a failure. im sick of being paralyzed by hopelessness and anxiety.